You evil gorgeous disgusting exquisite repugnant seductive appalling ravishing thing
I'd nearly forgotten
I'd been free of you for
2 years
3 months
18 days
7 drinks
346 drunken words
12 hours
Many desperately conflicted thoughts
And you're back
Now I'm questioning why I sent you away
You are vile
Shameful
Disgraceful
My biggest secret
And my closest friend
I remember you
In the darkness you whisper to me, comfort me, consume me
I am yours and I become you
I adore you and I loathe you
I adore you and I loathe you
I turn inward until there's nothing but us, the dark and the moment
I must shut you out again
I must not turn back to you
I must be free of you
